There are days, that I wake and I cannot "see" my eyes, bleeding clouded by fears as down my cheeks tears are streaming from the echos of centuries ancient pain suffering I chose through bitter cycles now the time is here today, now to cleanse the path to walk a new way and see with a richness from beyond
The journey of holistically healing my vision, through clearing emotional blockages and releasing childhood trauma and ancestral wounds, has been and continues to be one of the most profound journeys I’ve been on. It’s now been nearly 4 months since I stopped wearing my prescription glasses for most tasks, and 3 months since I stopped wearing them completely.
My vision is improving, but it is a fluctuating journey, and often my world shifts and changes around me. I still struggle to read words in the distance, yet the other day when hiking I spotted a tiny butterfly with transparent wings, amidst a vast green jungle expanse. When I’m swimming in the ocean, I experience moments of crystal clear clarity, like I can see every single atom in my environment, vibrating. I find that I see everything I need to see, and I am learning to feel patience and be content with my eyes just as they are. A question I’m often asked is “don’t you ever get headaches?” The answer is no. My eyes feel better than they’ve ever felt before, and I don’t experience tension in my head (or face for that matter). In fact, whereas I used to have terrible sinus trouble when flying in a plane (due to changes in air pressure), I now have no issue whatsoever – a fact I’ve recently discovered, flying tiny domestic aircraft in Costa Rica.
The biggest motivation for me to keep going on this path, even on the days when I’m having some practical difficulty reading or using my computer, is that I feel my awareness expanding: the depth to my sight going beyond my superficial physical world. I feel more connected, sensually, with the environment around me; and I feel more sensitive and perceptive of energy, subtle vibrations or motions in my field. I often feel a bird is about to fly overhead, before it appears in my physical vision.
I realise we are capable of seeing and experiencing so much beyond the physical, and also how interconnected the mind, body, and soul is. Taking care of these different aspects of ourselves can have profound knock-on consequences for our health, beyond what we imagine. More than ever, I appreciate the power of emotional and spiritual healing and how this impacts our physical body. And that’s my message: sometimes what we feel physically, is just a symptom of something that goes far far deeper, that requires us to examine ourselves and to take care of and nourish our soul. It’s time to stop using superficial bandaids, and to embrace deeper healing, for our own wellbeing and the health of all our relations.
This photo is from my relaxing self-care ritual combined with painful healing ritual: blue clay face mask, and stinging mariola honey drops in my eyes. The pain often brings up different emotions and feelings buried deep within me, to the surface, for me to process and release: and emerge feeling more whole, and at peace, with myself.
Wishing you a beautiful day, and clarity on your path.